Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Blessed are They Who Mourn


Early Thursday morning, October 30th, 2014, I lost the love of my life.  It has been nearly a year since Alan flew away to heaven.  I was blessed to share 31 wonderful years with this precious, creative man.  I miss him more than I can put into words.

Something beautiful happened after my Beloved left us.  I could not sleep those first few days--I kept reliving the moments he fought to live.

I remembered giving Alan CPR until the ambulance came...I remembered counting, as I was pressing my hands against his heart, blowing my breath into his lungs--his lips against mine.  He had tried so hard to come back to us.   

A day later in the early morning hours, I lay on the sofa, my eyes closed, weeping.  It just didn't seem real.  How could my world go on without him in it?  Then suddenly a cool, sweet breeze slid across my face...and I felt my Beloved's dear lips press softly against mine.  My husband kissed me goodbye.

I am grateful for the astonishing memory of that last kiss--His lips touching mine in love--a beautiful, miraculous good-bye from my Beloved.  That memory is the one to which I cling.  The love we shared was truly an extraordinary one. 

Alan was a servant of God and He loved people. He wanted everyone to know God loved them too, and so I am passing his message on to you dear ones--God loves you.  He longs to know you, God wants to share His Son and the world He created for you--in a whole different way than you've ever known.

"Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted."
  Matthew 5:4

7 comments:

  1. What a heart breaking post. I feel you pain as I have came close more than once losing my Alan. You are blessed to have experienced this. God Bless you.
    Hugs
    Patti

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  2. What a beautiful story. How lovely that he was able to linger long enough to really kiss you goodbye.

    Blessings to you & hugs,
    Teresa

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  3. how lovely that you were given that kiss
    a lovely gift from your beloved
    something that crosses the barriers of mind
    into the realm of forever
    spirit
    sending love as a year has nearly passed

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  4. Thinking of you today, Dear Heart. May the God of all comfort hold you in his arms of love tonight.
    Blessing hugs,
    Teresa

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  5. Oh Beth, my heart is so sore to read this. My love goes out to you.xxx

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  6. Oh dear one i cry everytime I hear this story... it breaks my heart and touches my soul. love you, Wendy

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